decisions c2-head***


decisions

Hi! I have been put in a position where I feel like either way I go I will be doing the wrong thing. My husband lost his job in 2009. Because of this we have been in serious financial trouble. We have six kids, and we have taught them all at home. We live in a tiny house, not above our means. rents would cost more than our house payment. Herein lies my problem. Putting the three that I am presently teaching at home, in public school is something I do not feel that the Lord wants me to do. I actually don't worry that it is a worldly place becasue our kids have lots of 'friends' that are not christians. They all compete in the public schools sports programs. The public schools around here are not good at all. It is a city and they have a zillion issues because of that; violence, drugs etc. We have one daughter who is very dyslexic, and at 14 would have a very hard time in PS. If I teach them at home I cannot work during the day, and if I work at night, our oldest three will have trouble getting to their jobs because they share a car. Also if I work I will have no time to cook etc....which saves money. I presently clean homes, and I make decent money doing that, and that is flexible and somewhat manageble. I have a degree in sports management and just applied for a gymnastics teaching/coaching job, which I got, but now I am thinking how in the world am I going to do all of this. The cleaning jobs tend to be sporadic because at times the people cancel so I cannot depend on that money. My body is really hurting too from all of my years as a competitive gymnast. In short I am completely worn out. I just don't know what the Lord wants me to do. I feel that if I truly 'obey' him, I will stay home with the kids, teach them diligently and allow God to provide through my husband. Recently my 60 year old husband has gotten some more stable construction type jobs...he was in an office job before, in advertising. Then I think maybe the Lord wants me to work, but I am not sure how much. Some of my older three work two jobs and take local college classes, there is only so much they can do, and they are not parents. I do know this, God does want me to be peaceful, and at present I am not..........I don't see how I can be. I guess I just don't know what is God speaking and what is Satan and the world speaking. Everyone's tolerance level is different. Some women can do it all...... I just know I cn't do it all well. My little ones are 'suffering' under the weight of a worried mom. Thank-you for any answers.!

Comments for decisions

Click here to add your own comments

God will . . .
by: Alissa Lynne

My sister sounds like you have a lot on your plate...and I shall be praying . . . but one thing I noticed is that you kind of answered yourself in your own writing...if you feel that God does not want you to put your children in public school and to stay home - it is best to do just that...

Sometimes the enemy comes in like this to mess with us and to subject our children to things that God would not have us to do, and yet we see it from the eyes of the world...instead of the eyes of God.

My sister do not do a thing until you know that God has said to do so - pray and fast until you get an answer and I am praying for peace and calmness of mind so that what you are going through does not pass onto the children...God is always able to answer things...have you checked into some government help such as the gas bill help and things of that sort to help cut some of the expenses of living and even food stamps...

I know many times we make certain things taboos such as assistance from the government but it was original put in place for people in situations such as yourself trying to make ends meet and still having a problem and it would only be temporary until you get back on your feet, it will also help ease some stress too...just a thought..

I shall be praying for you and we know that God answers prayer! Hugs to you and your family and I shall be praying....

Click here to add your own comments

Join in and write your own page! It's easy to do. How? Simply click here to return to Christian Life Advice.





powered by site build it!



You're a VIP to Me!
Be Treated Like a V.I.P.
For Free!

 Bible Study Online VIP Corner
  • Free Subscription to The Hem eDevotional
  • Free 4 Part Audio Series on How to Connet With God!
  • Free access to our Christian eBook Library
And more!

Get Immediate Access!

Don't worry -- your e-mail address is totally safe with me.  I respect your privacy and will never give away or sell your email address.