doubts

by Rakesh Kharlukhi
(India)

I belong to a true christian family. I was involved in many criminal activities and once i was an Anti-Christian. I don't like the name Jesus. Now i believe that am returning back to Him after a dead life. Now i want to become a christian missionary to preach the Good News to those countries that hate my Lord Jesus. I am not getting any support from anyone. Help me. My story would be too long to explain. Just help me how to become a Missionary, which i doubt of becoming for not having support.