I overcame the grave!
by Erin Brooke Greeson
My Name is Erin Livingston,
I grew up in a christian home, and my parents stayed together, from the outside it was a picture perfect family.The only obstacle in our way was me!At about 14 years old, my mom got really sick and was away in the hospital for a long time, i was at a time in life when i really needed someone , but didn't feel i had anyone! I began dating guys older then me, and i had my virginity taken from me when i was on 14 years old! As a result, my emotions went wild, i began smoking weed and drinking, and anything i could to escape reality. soon after my mom came home, my sister and I lost our best friend. That is about the time i absolutely lost all care, and dignity i had for myself! I was on a path of self destruction from that moment on! I got pregnant when i was 18, with my first child, his father went to jail, and remains there now, i married soon after, and got pregnant with my middle child,. i was only 21 with 2 kids, and my marriage fell apart, i felt so hopeless! and i became depressed. a year later i married again, because i wanted so bad to have a family, but he too ended up stealing from me, and was a drug addict as well, so the kids and i were alone again. I began going out to the bars every night on my way home from work, and on one of those nights.......I conceived again! I was so upset with myself, i was a beautiful, loving person, with amazing children, but the devil had a choke hold on me, after my first divorce i was a Sunday school teacher, i sang in the choir , I had it together but somewhere
i got lost again! Now that i was pregnant with my 3 child and wasn't married, i felt my life was over i became so depressed, but about halfway through my pregnancy God began speaking to me, the guy i was with was an alcoholic, and the relationship was awful, the kids and i got back in church, and despite the stares i got everywhere i went i held my head high and went anyways. After i had Judson, everything about life had changed, i could feel a sense of relief, and newness fall over me. i was so happy . i realized how absolutely blessed i was, i knew things had to change in my circumstances for me to get back where i need to be in my christian walk, and although i felt unworthy and as if i didn't deserve the Grace of Jesus, but i knew my children deserved a brighter future! I packed my things and left , after Brady refused any kind of rehab, so the kids and i were alone,, AGAIN! right in the midst of the Christmas Holidays, our life had been turned upside down. I began to work on myself, and becoming a better person, i started seeing Zak a guy i had been with prior to Brady, he refused to let the kids and i Go, He bought my newest baby highchairs and things to help out in life, and diapers, and talking us to dinner, I had been a cosmetologist for 10 years but need more income for the kids and I so i decided to go back to school, where i am not studying to be a respiratory therapist,Zak and I are happily married, and our relationship with Christ is amazing! the kids are the happiest they have ever been! and he is adopting the baby! God is GOOD, and he can do ANYTHING!