RESULTS OF TAKING MY MY EYES OFF JESUS WHILE GOING THROUGH A TRAIL
I was the type of person who when going through anything difficult, I withdrew into myself. Growing up I never had anyone to share with in family or friends so I learned to internalize things, to worry, become depressed.
Even as a christian, I shared nothing with God through prayer, I really thought He didn't care one way or the other. I think I saw Him as I saw my parents, only there for the discipline.
It took me many years to find out how valuable I am to God. That He is truly is love, and loves me unconditionally (this is not a cliche). I could not see it for the smoke that Satan clouded my vision with.
I would like to repent to God, for this gross mis-judgement of Him. My eyes are now open, I spend more time in the word, believing what His word says about who I am in Him what He can do through me. I see that I have to fight the good fight of faith, sometimes it will be a fight as circumstances tell us it is not working. I found that He will chastise us as His children as I chastised my own children because I love them. He could not let me stay in my wrongs.
So Father, I have seen the light, the problem is in me, not You. You never took your eyes or hands off of me, I took mine off of you. I love you so much Father and welcome you back into my life.
Your loving daughter